It's funny how things come full circle sometimes.
As most of you know from the nudges on our Twitter feed - we launched a new song along with a new music video and even though it's called DROWNED I actually named this blog post after the feeling of mental drowning which has been sort of haunting me lately.
I have a lot of ideas, and I admit my greatest challenge is completing them.
I know, I've recorded songs - albums even, but this drowning feeling doesn't really go away. Typically I can fight against the current of my mind running itself in a whirlpool but I think somewhere I lost a water-wing and I'm doomed to forever drift within a crazy circle of my imbalance within a large massive circle that is life.
I mention this because I feel like I can't be the only person - creative or not - who gets this overwhelmed feeling. My symptoms span from not being able to sleep to forgetting people's names or not being able to stop procrastinating doing something I really want to be doing. It's like the chatting other half inside my head is telling me that I should really think about if I should be doing that thing, right now if I have this other thing and this other thing and this other thing...
You get the point.
A circle. A cycle. A spiral. And it's something I haven't figured quite out how to counteract but I'm working on it by trying to stop the ceaseless chatter of my 'monkey-mind' - the voice I mentioned earlier. The one inside of us that tells us negative things about ourselves when really we should be talking to ourselves positively and reinforcing that YES: I am human. YES: I am good enough. YES: I am worthy.
So I wanted to say, regardless of how this negativity manifests - know that even if I am the only other person experiencing this state of OVERWHELMING drowning - you are not alone. Someone else feels this way too and I will just keep swimming and fighting until I break free from the currents of the shadows around me and reach clean sparkly open water to which I will float on and stare up at the stars of potential. Smile and say I AM good enough.
And I will start with breathing. Breathe In. Breathe Out. Breathe In. Breathe Out.
What are your first steps to calming your mind and relaxing your own personal expectations? Leave a response in the comment section below. <3 Mel
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Breathe In. Breathe Out. Repeat.
"Buddha described the human mind as being filled with drunken monkeys, jumping around, screeching, chattering, carrying on endlessly. We all have monkey minds, Buddha said, with dozens of monkeys all clamoring for attention. Fear is an especially loud monkey, sounding the alarm incessantly, pointing out all the things we should be wary of and everything that could go wrong."
- BJ Gallagher "How To Tame Your Monkey Mind"